What is the Purpose of This?

This moment in time was on my mind when I woke this morning. Why have I added it here now? I tend to write journals and then years later in fits of soul-cleansing or privacy-greed I destroy them. Perhaps I want to be sure that this bit survives. For her.

I miss you, Mom.

                    More than I can say.

 

– from the journal of Regina Richards 1-24-2011

Mom is nearing the end of the battle. All her life she’s been blessed with physical beauty, an uncommonly sharp mind, a saintly personality, and a deep faith. Now the cancer has ravaged her body and invaded her brain, stealing her mind and changing her personality. 

But cancer has been powerless against her Faith.

For a time I asked, “Father, this woman has been your true and faithful servant. Why must she suffer so? Why must she be stripped of all she was, all those things that were a Glory to You and a Blessing to us? Doesn’t she deserve a gentler, better, more dignified death?”

Though I never asked this in her presence, despite her cancer-ravaged mind, the answer came directly from Mother herself. “I’ve been blessed with an absolutely wonderful life full of people I love who love me and extraordinarily good health until here at the very end. Now I am being stripped of those things and left only with my trust in Him. And that is okay because that’s all I need as I go to Him.”

I don’t believe that cancer and suffering is God’s Will for my mother. It’s simply one of the “things of this world”. I believe that God’s Will for my mother is that she go to Him in complete trust and faith – and perhaps witness to her family before she leaves that she is taking with her as she goes only what is truly essential: Faith, Hope, and Love.

Brenda Novak Mentorship Contest Finalist Hot Prospects winner Enchanted Words finalist Happily Ever After winner Happy Housewife former homeschooler FlyBaby Bad Mommy! @ www.4badmommies.com

Posted in Regina's Journal
4 comments on “What is the Purpose of This?
  1. I’m so sorry to hear about your mother, Regina. I’ll be thinking of you, sending thoughts and love your way.

  2. Thanks, Annie. Just finished reading the first 5 chapters of your newest work. Fabulous. Can’t wait to read more.

  3. HI Regina! I was moved to tears by your post, so beautfilly written and honest, and moving. I felt comforted by such powerful words and my heart is with you as you remember and think about her loss. I know she is with you though – she sounds too strong of a woman to go quietly and is probably right there. Cyber hugs and prayers.

  4. Thanks, Jen.

    Your new gravatar is gorgeous!

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